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Saturday, September 23, 2006

~~Relived that Innocence~~

its juz so near to the exams... n i tink i was really too stressed out these days... near the point of mental breakdown again... been unable to sleep well for the past week... keep wakin up every now n then... but after ytd, i felt like i was ready to take on the world again...

ytd some of my classmates was involved in an exhibition at the expo... usually i tot tat such things don bother the restof the class n no1 will bother to go c or anythin de... but to my surprise when nearly my whole class went to the expo to look at their exhibition after lessons... which was like alr around 4pm... personally i felt it was quite touchin to c tat the class is actually so closely knitted... even so when my friend from another class told me the same thin too one day...

after tat tho many had to go home or stay at expo to mug, there were still 7 of us headin towards the airport to eat... n when we arrived at the airport i then realised tat it has been years since i last went there n changes made seem so foreign to me...

seems like my friends oso don go airport often n so we were all so attracted to the planes n all... n we spent a great of time searchin for the place we wanted to go eat oso... hahaz... but tats still not the best part of the day yet... after we ate we wanted to look at the planes n juz go de... but i felt tat it will b too much a waste to not take any pics... esp when memories will fade as one age... only pics will b there to remind us of the past we hav... onli pics will contain the happiness n joy we shared then... n onli pics will b able to preserved the joy it contain n let us taste the sweetness of it when we look at it again...

i nev noe takin photos can b so much fun... we started takin photos wif everythin we c on the way to the skytrain... there n then i felt like i was so young again... so young tat we all seem so carefree n innocent again, not burdened by any responsiblities of the world... everythin juz seems to b so simple... every single act can make one happy... n every nonsensical stuff we did actually means a lot...

the day felt like it was a dream... for the happiness index i feel was way over the charge... but after all that my mind is filled wif a lot of thoughts n reflections again... but the main question was y i was so happy? perhaps i had long wished for the same old innocence back in the primary sch days n my wish had sort of come true ytd when we juz went all out to hav fun doin things which may seem stuuupid to others...

i could b simply wantin to escape from the present life full of stress n responsiblity for a while, to escape from reality n hence desire for the simple life of an innocent child... or it could b tat i noe tat time i can spend wif my friends n all r gettin shorter wif the passin of every single day so i am grateful even more that we had such chance to get together n waeve even more memories while we still can...

nevertheless, ytd reminds me of the times when i was juz runnin about in pri sch playin catchin n makin a mess of everythin yet keepin the smile n laughter... the feelin is simply wonderful n too good to b true... tink as we grow older we tend to forget the importance of keepin that smile n laughter when we done somethin wrong... instead we grow to blame ourselves or even others for the mistake n ended up been upset wif the world...

even now when we r comin close to the exams we will rather face our notes wif a grouchy face then to rmb how fun a test or exam could actually b... the process of learnin shld b fun de... yet the failure to recognise the fun leave us wif onli complains n neagtive feelins.... ironic...

comin to the end of tis post i am havin mixed feelins within me... to b sad tat year is comin to end n possibly splittin of the class or to b happy a year of memories has been weaven... to b stressed tat exams r near or to b relaxed as the holidays r near... to b cool about the things around me or to b passionate about the things around me... wadeva it is... wadeva choice make... i will nev forget... to keep the smile going... to stay happy always... for somethin so simple may take a life to comprehend....

When We Are Young, We Cant Wait To Grow Old... When We Are Old, We Cant Wait To Grow Young...

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

~~Revived Dead, Dead Revived~~

so long since i last blog again... but tis time the reason is diff... its not i no time to blog or don wan to blog... instead, i had wanted to blog so much durin tat period of time but i coudnt... the com was down...

perhaps life is so... juz when u decided to do somethin heaven will make a fool out of u n set up obstacles... mayb it is to prevent us from makin mistakes... mayb it is to tell us we r not worthy yet... mayb it is simply to make us more appreciative at the end of the day... appreciative of wad we r doin n wad we achieved...

finally, my com was repaired ytd... but the joy in me was shortlived... it starts to gif problems again today n i am juz glad tat i can use it now... perhaps its the same principle at work again... i appreciate bein able to use the com now more than ever n every second i spend wif the com seems to b a bonus still...

thinkin back in my lfie i seem to b usin the same principle as well... while i am cheerful n always happy go lucky in front of ppl, my blog always seem to contain a contradictin bit of sadness... perhaps it is tis saddness tat i leave in my blog tat allows me to stay cheerful n happy always... i once heard s sayin, someone's happiness muz always come from another's unhappiness... it is tis balance tat keeps the world going-n keeps us livin as the cycle of unhappiness n happiness go on... so since i can hav my unhappiness contained in my blog i shall b able to hav my happiness not at the sake of others...

then again, it may onli b tat in my blog i am able to face the other side of me n the sorrows i hav in me... mayb with each word i type i am able to hav the sorrows embedded within... n bit by bit the sadness leaves me n wads left behind is onli joy n euphoria-the positive energy i need to keep me going in the journey of life...

Life Is Never A Bed Of Roses, But A Bed Of Roses Is Never Life Too...

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